Psalm 38- Haters Gonna’ Hate, or Why I’m Trusting in God’s Goodness #shereadstruth

Psalm 38- Haters Gonna' Hate, or Why I'm Trusting in God's Goodness #shereadstruth

When I read David’s cry to God in Psalm 38, I am struck by this: David sees his mess brought about from his own sin without any rose colored glasses.

“My wounds stink and fester because of my foolishness….”
“I am feeble and crushed; I groan because of the tumult in my heart…”

Not exactly the language I use when describing my sin. I say things like, it’s something I’m working on. It’s an area of struggle. David lays out the truth. His sin is breaking him and he longs for God to be merciful and bring restoration. Without that brutal honesty, my repentance becomes a technical step, not a heart-felt response of surrender.

Yet David also feels the hurt from people around him who are gloating or uncomfortable with him in his mess. Friends are pulling away. Enemies are gleefully plotting how this will bring his destruction. The truth is only God loves us in our messiest places in the way that can bring true healing. My sin effects others. Sometimes when I’m honest about it, people will feel ashamed or think I’m being a little “over spiritual” or simply not know how to respond. Other times, people around me may be glad to see me fall. Enjoy feeling a little bigger at my expense. They are not my problem or my solution to healing though, so I can respond like David saying,

“But for you, O Lord, do I wait. It is you, O Lord my God, who will answer.”

We absolutely need community. God is clear about this. But not for forgiveness. Not for restoration from sin. Only God can offer these, and offer he does! Through Christ, there is abundant mercy. While I may feel crushed, Christ was actually crushed for me. While I may hurt over people’s response to my sin, Christ was plotted against, abandoned and betrayed- for me. In my place. And in knowing that grace, I can rejoice even in repentance, that I am never alone and never rejected by Him.

“As for you O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me.” -Psalm 39:11

One thought on “Psalm 38- Haters Gonna’ Hate, or Why I’m Trusting in God’s Goodness #shereadstruth

  1. I had post natal depression after the birth of my first child and seureffd badly. Remember that it is a biochemical imbalance in the brain and not a punishment sent by anyone or related to sin in our lives. It is an illness just as much as someone who has a broken leg. Of course it has lots of psychological implications but these can be treated. I was dead against using any form of medication to start with but ended up in such a state that I had to begin taking antidepressants. That is not something to be ashamed of as a Christian. Yes we can trust God to us but God also gave people the ability to create medicines to treat illnesses.I felt such a great deal of stigma ESPECIALLY among fellow Christians about being depressed. I feared I would be judged as not being a “proper” Christian or something. However, I was glad when I finally opened up and for the prayer and support I received. Sorry this is so long but I just wanted to offer a balanced view on this and to you realise this is nothing to be ashamed of and can be treated.Lots of loveCollette xxxx

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